Love has NO boundary

Woah... Its been months since i've ever felt so genuinely loved and wanted. Hahaha... but i was just thinking: "How long will this last?" Well, then again.. does it even matter? Whats important as i always say is to "Just enjoy the moment."

*Everyone give Mei Mei the what-the-hell-you-talking-about look*

Hahaha.. let me explain..

Since last weekend, i entered a world where "Love has no boundary". For the first time in my life, i truely understand that Love is not about getting married or giving birth, but its about understanding, connecting and communicating with each other. Well, not that im in love, but i feel love, i see love, and i know that that IS love.

"So..." you ask, "Why are you wanted and loved?"

hmm.. I was "touched" in a way that i know im "touched" not because of my body but because of who i am, and what im being seen as and most importantly, trusted as. Still dunnoe what i mean? ok, girls, think. If you are pretty, you will feel that guys wanna get close to you because of your beauty right? Then if you have big breasts, guys wanna get near to you because you know lah.... So, what i felt was, i was not wanted and loved because of my breasts (i got no beauty anyway). Now you understand? *All nod head* ok.. good.... *phew*

Ok, let's talk about something else... something that came to my mind but my best friend has no time to hear me out. (That best friend better start to panic, hint: Its a he, has a girlfrd who is my best friend, has a girly name")

I believe, some of you will already know that i have kinda given up on relationships? What do you mean you don't know?? Well, read the words out loud and clear "I HAVE GIVEN UP ON RELATIONSHIPS WITH MEN *Straight Men*" Good, well done.. Now you know. Let me carry on from there. Yah, I have given up and is almost enjoying singlehood.

Why give up? Let's just put it this way. I am looking for someone, who is willingly to love me alot, but NOT commited to me and vice versa. Those whom I have found so far, is either requiring too much commitment on my side, or says NO COMMITMENT, NO FEELING but dunnoe why, VERY affected by a little bit of love shown to him (I guess, he doesnt understand by "NO commitment WITH love")

The reason for looking for no commitment is simply because, im still young, i never know what is gonna happen in the future. All I know now is that, i wanna enjoy myself, yet have someone to fall onto when i needed a hug, a kiss, and love. Frankly, which stupid man will ever want to make such a sacriface? (Like i've said, i got no beauty mayb thats y hahaha...) Furthermore, im a weird person, whoever is gonna spend his life with me will have to really go through Hell lots of "Emotional Boot Camp Training". hahaha...

Now, let's put the first part and the second part together. Actually, I have found someone who is willing to love me, hug me and kiss me, but comes the question: how long? *Hello!!! not the dick length lah! Its the relationship* Reason: I got to know him three-four months ago, we just got closer last weekend. I love him for he is very much like me, the kind of relationship that we look for is the same, but we can never be together. Period. We are both looking for someone who is financially stable, has good career foundation and loves us (Veh practical). Since we are both not financially stable neither do we good career foundation as yet, no point of loving each other, anyway, its a different kinda love, our LOVE has no boundary.

Love you Darlin... :)

BIG S (Sebes) small s (Sherlin)

Be Jealous, Princess!! Hahaha.. He is so cute!! isnt he? thats Sebes!! My new breau. Believe or not... heehee...

*Jealous Princess (a.k.a Kayee) rolling her eyes*

What a man!?!

Yesterday, I had my lunch with my friends at Novena Foodcourt. At the entrance of the foodcourt, i saw this really nice picture of "Pineapple rice", so i thought, "Hmm, havent had it for a long time, let's have it for lunch."

Well, i went to the Thai stall to order. Woah... there were like at least 4-5 people in front of me. Hmm.. then this couple right in front of me attracted my attention. Both of them are the executive type; well-dressed, good spoken english, in their early thirties.

So what happened exactly??

They were talking to each other, so naturally, people will assume they are lunching together. When the cashier took their order, he totaled the bill, looked at the MAN and say :" that will be $11.50 Sir." That MAN, who was holding a TEN DOLLAR NOTE looked shock! (His bill should total to about $7.00, the lady's about $4.50)

Man:" WHAT!? I only ordered two dishes!"
Cashier *Puzzled*: "But the lady.... You mean separate?"
Man *As a matter of fact*:" Of course!"
Lady *quite naturally*:"yah separate"

I was standing right behind, and when i saw that, first thought: YOU FUCKING HELL CALL YOURSELF A MAN!! (Kee Leong: mayb he's not *giggle*) Anyway, WTF!? He is fucking holding a TEN DOLLAR NOTE, all he had to do was to top it up with a TWO DOLLAR NOTE and that TWO (mind you 2) dollar can save him some face lor...

Look at it this way, if they wanna go on dutch, fine, but since its only a two dollar top up, pay for it first then settle the bill with the lady back at the table lah. This way, at least that will make him look gentlemanly lor.

Hai.. Frankly, i have nothing against men. But sometimes, some things that they do just kana piss me off. hahaha.. Uncle Kee was saying that i must have been hanging ard him for too long that i thot ALL MALE SPECIES are SUPPOSE to be gentlemen. Well, what can i say? Either he spoiled the market or he make us start to think....

P.S: The pineapple rice sucks! I paid $4.50 for oil.

MANNERS again!! And INITIATIVE!!! KNOCK IT DOWN!

Hahaha... here i am, going to talk about manners again! This time top it up with initiative as chocolate fudge.

Monday, 4 July 2005, was my first day at work (IRAS, Corporate Tax Dept). The whole batch of us reporting at work were recruiting to be production workers to help complete all the filing of companies taxes.

We reported at level #23, were then brought up n down to different levels and rooms to get some HR admin stuff done. (I shall spare you the details) Anyway, along the way, we had to go through doors for at least a million times. ok, brace yourselves, here is where im flaring up: TA MA DE!!! NAH BEH!!!!! EVERYONE JUST WALK THROUGH THE BLODDY DOOR!!!!!! DON"T ANYONE IN FRONT HAVE ANY FUCKING INITIATIVE TO HOLD THE DOOR??!!! *phew* (Catch my breath) Ok, never mind... Nobody hold, i hold lor (All the time!!) Here is comes again, fastern your seat belts: KAN NI NAH BEH!!!! HOLD THE BLODDY DOOR FOR YOU. NONE OF THEM FUCKING WANT TO OPEN THEIR GOLDEN MOUTH TO SAY A SIMPLE "Thank you". AT LEAST SMILE LAH!! They just bloody hell walk through the door lor, like im paid a million to open the door for them.

Frankly, im really fed up, then i don't want to hold door for them anymore. Im not sure if it is an Accountant thingy (Im NOT an accountant) or is it a Singaporean thingy (at least im not that bad a Singaporean, i hope), many a times, when you hold a door for someone, anyone, be it a stranger or a friend, do they say "Thank you"? All the time, it got me so worked up that i really feel like scolding whoever the fuck that person is for not being polite. Anyway, teach you guys something (learn from uncle Kee), next time anyone who don't say "Thank you", Just say a really loud "YOU ARE WELCOME HUH!?!" and SMILE after that person walk past the door you held for him or her. That person may think that you are crazy, but what the fuck, i hope he or she feels unpolite too.

Possesiveness

Was discussing about possesiveness with a girlfriend of mine,came to a conclusion that this situation occurs only when one do not truely own a person or a thing thus overcame with possessiveness.

Hahaha... "own a person" how possesive of me to have said that. Unfortunately, there are people who wants to own a person like a thing. A good example will be a case i saw in my school.

I have a friend, AP (Girl). She is a very sweet girlfriend, can cook, can wash, typical ideal wife pattern *Hahahaa... pattern.. sound so chinese*. Her boyfriend, LW (Jackass) practically owns her.

She has to report her status, next course of action and time of release (what time sch ends).
Fuck up rite? I mean occasionally reporting is ok, but after every lesson abit too much rite?

He tells her what friends she can or cannot have.
NAH BEH! Guess what he told her?
QUOTE: " You better dun hang out with that wenmei(thats mi) too much. She smokes, drinks, clubs... Very bad influence. She will even introduce guys to you, too much rite? She noe you got mi what..."
My reply: " WENMEI CLUBS?! SMOKES?! You fucking jackass! The last person on earth will noe that i have only been to chinablack ONCE, n i left at 11.30pm. Intro guys to her, of course lah!! Its because she is with you thats y im doing that."


Well, this kinda jackass wants to be so possesive simply becoz he fears her leaving. hahaha... I no need intro guys to her lor, she had an affair recently ( I RISE TWO HANDS SUPPORT HER, everybody cheer "AFFAIR AFFAIR AFFAIR...), he got so scared he decided that he should change. Asking for it.

Well, I guess the one very reson why i am actually toking about this topic is that i heard sometihing from someone that totall piss me OFF!

K: Oh that F( She is a bitch) said that she thinks that you are very possesive over me. * Not veh happy*

Me: isit? *piss off* I dun think so....

Frankly, I know we are not together, but thats y I AM alil possesive. When we use to be in a relationship, since when have i shown my possesiveness? Im just piss that you actually think so well of that F that you feel as though whatever she said is like words from angel. Youi havent even seen the ugly side of that B****.

Conclusion: I feel that one is only possesive over someone whom they deem they cannot hold on to or afraid of losing.