I am the happiest GIRL now :)

What can i say but I Am Happy! For once in a year's time i am TRUELY happy.

I remember once when Sabrina, my very dear friend, told me this: " You can tell the whole world that you are happy, but only you will truely know that you are."

She told me that when i told her that im happy now that i have more time for myself since HE was outta my life then.

She was right, i was never happy. How happy can i be? I lost the love of my life, as much as i wanna be with him, he chose to leave mi. I cried myself to sleep every night, I asked my friends out to eat, drink til late at night so i can go home to sleep like a log, and wake up the next morning, go to work, work like hell, go to gym, kill myself, then feel really tired so that i have no time to think about him. This routine went on for awhile.

Following on, i thought i could be truely happy if i get myself a boyfriend and forget about him.

Meiling, my close friend, told me this: " If you are with him just because you thought you needed somebody to be there, you are being very selfish, but, well, as long as you are happy, as a friend, i will give you my blessings"

True enough, i didnt really love that "boyfriend" of mine, and i was not really happy. He is just one of those typical no manners non-gentleman Singaporean men, (generally most Singaporean Men are like such, only a very pathetic small percentage are considered Acceptable). I complained about him everyday, well, i guess it wasnt really him being the problem, but the problem is that i just couldnt get over HIM to see any good in that "boyfriend". Conclusion: He is just not my type and im definitely not his type, thus "byebye".

Along the way, I got to know a wonderful man who was so willingly to give his love to me. Hmm, we knew that we cant be together for a very good reason, nonetheless, he treats like he treats his "Dear" or even better. It was because of him that i try getting back on my feet. It was also because of him that I really try to be happy and learn that life is never complete without laughter and there WILL be someone out there who cares.

Now, after struggling for about a year, HE is back... No, WE are back together. The kind of happiness and blissful feeling that i am feeling now can never be written down but you can feel it and you can see it. From that one year of pain and agony that i have had, made me realise that what i have now is truely a blessing. I dont even dare to ask for more, I just hope that things go well and WE are happy, TRUELY HAPPY. :)

[PS: If you know who HE is, good for you. If not, dun bother asking, I wont say.] hahahaa....